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November 13, 2002
Well, another week has gone by. The boys had the stomach flu last week, it was horrible we felt so sorry for them. They finally got over it on Thursday. We did go down to San Diego for my birthday and to visit our friends and family. I went to a creative memories party where my aunt is the consultant. I broke down and purchased the baby album, now I am just debating to put it together or not. I don't want to jinx anything. Some days I feel that everything is going well and that I have high hopes of being able to adopt both of these boys and then other days I just feel that they are going to go back. I feel that way more towards A the 4 month old partly because his SW doesn't give us much information. He had a visit today with his bio mom, whom he hasn't seen in three weeks. We only have three more weeks to wait until we go to court for M and hoepfully then our minds will be at ease with happy news to celebrate the holiday with. While we were down in San Diego I went to a baby shower for one of my good friends. They had been trying for about a year and she has had 2 M/C's. My feelings were kind of strange. I wasn't really upset at the fact that she is having a baby, I was more sad at the fact that I didn't get to have a baby shower. Dh says we will have an adoption party after finalization, but right now I just feel like I got cheated out of something again. These feelings will pass I am sure. We are laying low this weekend just hanging around the house it will definitly be a nice break since we haven't been home for two weeks basically.
I was so excited to read Aimees entry, I realize that she was aprehensive about posting her news here, but I am certainly here to support her. She still has a long road ahead of her and like she said they may still need to go the adoption route. Everyone's goal here is to become parents and for some the journey takes us on a ride that we would rather not take. I know for myself that when I want something I don't want to wait. I have already been waiting for almost five years isn't it my time yet? I try to put my faith in Gods hands because I know he has a plan for all of us, but at times I really struggle with that. Then I think to myself by doing foster adoption am I setting myself up for more hurt? I may very well be, but maybe this is Gods plan. How many poeple can put their heart out on the line for two little boys with the possiblity that they could go back to a situation you know is not what you can give them? I guess if they know that they were loved and cared for when they were with us then that is all that matters. I didn't plan on making my entry like this, apparetnly I needed to vent a little. Well I better get going. The boys are asleep so it is time to go pick up what my friends call the romp a room.lol I hope that everyone has a wonderful week. I look forward to hearing from you.
Happy Adoption thoughts
Kim
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